time out.

pc: you are bon bon

okay-dokay. i need a break. i'm sort of exhausted. i've decided not to overexert myself freaking out about other people's issues, or trying to make them my own. unless i'm specifically asked for my advice or help on something, i'm keeping my mouth shut, and staying out of it. it makes perfect sense once i think about it; and don't i have enough problems? so, that's all, folks. here's to worrying about things i can actually control!

mood music: kelley ryan - lost cause (beck cover - via cover me)

ps. thanks allie. the back-a-yo-head is ridicilus.

the way things are.

pc: ffffound

first-week-of-march epiphanies:

1. i have no idea where my life is going. i don't believe in luck, but if i did, i would venture to say that mine has indeed run out.

2. i will always and forever want what (and whom) i can't have. again, i don't believe in luck. sometimes i don't even want to believe in time. they say 'time heals all wounds' but i'm pretty sure that growth is the real culprit. and then i wonder if i've even grown that much. in some ways i still feel like i did when i was 15. awkward, insecure, and always looking for comfort in the wrong places. i wish i could take that 15-year old girl and shake her by the shoulders, and tell her that she's not going to get anywhere by being cynical. JUST LET GO. YOU DON'T HAVE TO FIGURE EVERYTHING OUT.

3. music really soothes my soul. so shout-out to beach house, the xx, mozella, a fine frenzy, zee avi, bob dylan, coeur de pirate, ray lamontagne, lucy schwartz and mayer hawthorne. 

4. i have a serious old-guy crush on alec baldwin. that's not really an epiphany, but i just wanted to throw it in to lighten the mood. thanks for understanding.

mood music: lucy schwartz - gravity (via you are the music)