Friday, August 7, 2009

hidden treasures.

pc: ffffound

fact: i'm a word fiend. put together, broken up, fragmented, felt. i love words and the opportunities that they give us. you can help and hurt people. you can build and destroy things. language is everything.

another fact: i love music. and i'm no snob; i love all genres, all kinds of instruments, beats, and voices. i am a sucker for good lyrics, and i know if i'm going to connect emotionally with a song by the time the first line is over. some of my favorite songs though, tend to be those that are completely stripped down; just a voice and a message. the ones that tear you up inside because you know you've been there. "lover, you should have come over" by jeff buckley is a great example. perfectly desperate and gut-wrenching. and do you remember that crazy alanis morissette song, "forgive me love"? it was a hidden track from jagged little pill and she was just creepily talking about dancing in some guy's shower, and reading his mail and listening to his records. and why did i, as an 11 year-old girl, have it in my head that i could somehow relate to that situation? it was just so hauntingly beautiful that it almost got you excited to be an adult, and break into your exes' house and put on his robe and cry in his bed, just so you could one day play that song again and be like, "yeah, alanis. i got you."

nowadays, one of my favorite female piano-playing singer-songwriters is rachael yamagata. and her latest hidden track is equally wistful, but probably like ten times less disturbing. it's called "the only fault" and i think it will resonate with anyone that's ever been in love (or thought they were), or with anyone that has been saved, or maybe needed to save somebody else. maybe it'll hold more weight if you happen to have a vagina, but i like to think the lyrics are gender-inclusive. enjoy.

if i could have one wish, if i could have some say
i'd keep you far from home.
i'd roll back both my sleeves, dig under your skin
and fix your shattered bones.

hold on, this may hurt you when i tell you the truth:
we don't get two lives to live.
it's true, the only fault i found in you
is not being free to take what i would give.

if i could bend your pain into something good,
make you a prouder man.
if i could rough you up, and save you with good luck
i'd show you hope again.

hold on, we're not meant to suffer so very long
even love that's gone has never been the same.
hang tight, the only fault you have tonight
is sitting down so cold 'til i break in.

oh sad young man, i think i need you
for reasons i don't know.
i pledge myself to winter season so it's perfectly on course,
but in the end it has to snow.

if i can make you stay, convince you you'd be lost if we were torn apart,
if it remained unclear between the two of us
which one would be the one to break the other's heart.

hold on, this will floor me differently than any drug that's washed me into sleep.
it's true, the only fault i'll take from you
is how to run from what you wish to keep.


mood music: rachael yamagata - the only fault

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